I'd love to be a stay at home mum for good but in doing so I have to give up certain aspects of myself and as a family we go with out certain things. It is the balance of these issues that has led to me looking for a full time job again.
I don't judge anyone for their decisions and I'd like to think I won't be judged for mine either as they took much thought and I have made the choices I feel will help everyone in my family be happiest.
Mainly I am very good at what I do, I'd like to reach the top of my game and I can't do that part time or sat at home watching Kyle and reading Paddington.
I'd like our family to have some nice exotic holidays and be able to live comfortably instead of budgeting from one wage.
I want Tabitha to attend a nursery, she will love it. I want her Daddy to be able to drop her off and pick her up with arms full of glitter covered pictures.
Perhaps most importantly for me I want to have the budget to be able turn up outside my mans work and whisk him off to a hotel for a spontaneous night drinking.
Keep your fingers crossed for me as I hunt for the perfect job.