There is an average amount of weight so 'they' say that most women put on during pregnancy. I took that figure and doubled it. I ate crap and used the whole 'its a big baby' and 'eating for two thing' way too far.
When Tabitha was born weighing in on the small side I knew I had some hard work to do to get back into my old jeans! I have managed since January to lose 2.5 stone through healthy diet and a few weeks on the Slim Fast Programme. I am not happy though I have the jeans on but I am still bigger than before. Pre Tabitha I was wearing a 10 on top and a 12 below, I never used to weigh myself I had no idea what I weighed. Happy with my size I could eat what i wanted and never gave it a second thought. Now I think about it all the time and could tell you from day to day what I weigh although I won't because I don't want anyone to know.
I am unhappy with my weight and I want so badly to be the way I was before I had Tabitha. Just to be able to stroll into high street stores and not have to go the back of the rail to find the bigger sizes, that look nothing like the size 8 at the front of the rail because it wasn't designed to be that big.
It frustrates me and makes me angry with myself for letting it happen, for getting so carried away in the excitement of having a baby I forgot myself and what else was important. You may be thinking 'silly girl' 'weight doesn't matter' but it does, it does to me.
I want to be slim, I want to be in those tight jeans, that is what makes me happy.
So enough is enough. I went and viewed my local gyms and chose the one I felt most comfortable at, I wrote to their press office and sent a pitch. In exchange for membership I would journal my use of their facilities and my progress to all you other mums that want to be in 'those' jeans too.
I want to show that its worth the effort, worth getting off the sofa, putting down the cake and eventually strutting out for a meal with your man wearing those jeans and some massive heels.
My journey starts next week with three times weekly visits to Nuffield Heath Fitness and Wellbeing Gym.
